December 20, 2011
poised to fail
No doubt, curosity is the mother of great progress and developments made in our world, in our society. But more and more, at least from where I am, I see unhappiness and disillusionment as essential ingredients for change. In a way, for the continued 'evolution' of society, through political changes. I often wonder, what is the worst that might happen if my government stops drafting up new measures, new policies, new initiatives to ostensibly protect us. I often doubt the motive behind every new policy they announce to safeguard our interest, be it financial, economical or social. Each of these policies reeks of assumptions that we are ignorant, stupid and/or needy. Somehow, this year, while on the personal front and family front, things have been pretty smooth, my sentiment towards my own country just grows more and more negative. Is there a rock-bottom that we should hit, as a country, before things can look better? Is there really light at the end of the tunnel?
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 16:09
December 16, 2011
Listen to the rain fall...
More than two weeks ago, I closed a chapter in my work-life as I walked out of a house in Anchorvale, where I finished my last session of therapy work. I still wonder if there might be a sequel to this chapter; though I certainly did not have much idle time to dwell on this in the days following the last session. I found myself back in employment - a decision that oddly, everyone around me (friends, acquaintances, family) seem more positive about than I am. Most people who got to know of my 'status update' even congratulated me! It made me think, was it such a dreadful and pitiful thing being a freelance therapist/tutor, despite everyone commenting that it's a meaningful and noble job? So, perhaps, 'noble' in our society today, may equate to 'pitiable'.I have been working, not too productively, I must confess, for the past 2 weeks. Not because I am not productive (because I think I can be very productive if demands are made of me), but 'cos I am employed in a company that is not fully-operational yet. It's obviously a career honeymoon for me now, except I have to report to a largely under-utilised space i.e. the temporary office by 9.30am, Mon-Fri. But of course, what is 9.30am when I know of many who need to reach office by 9am. In short, still 'honeymoon'. Do I miss some of my boys already? Not quite, yet. Perhaps it's the holiday season and nobody in a right frame of mind will miss work, no matter how 'meaningful' it is. Perhaps I'm just happy to only commute between 2 points in a day, and not shuttle between Ang Mo Kio, Seng Kang, Hougang and Choa Chu Kang in the span of 8 hours. On certain days, I actually spent the same amount of time on trains or bus and teaching. Pretty tiring, even to think of it now! Very soon, again, Christmas will be here. Thinking back, this year has been pretty rewarding and smooth, in many ways of putting it. But, that will be another blog post to sum up the year (probably posted from Jakarta too)!Till then, enjoy the nice, cooling weather that this month brings and start counting your blessings too!
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 16:48
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